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FAVOURITE SMOOTHIE RECIPES

1.MORNING DETOX
An alkaline blend that is high in chlorophyll, boosts the immune system, reduces cholesterol and detoxifies the body.

½ a cucumber
1 red apple
10 green grapes
1 inch ginger root
1 teaspoon spirulina.

BLEND with ice + cup of water.

2.TROPICAL BERRY
A medley of tropical fruits and berries that enhance digestion and energy.

1 tablespoon goji berries
1 tablespoon blueberries
1 tablespoon mulberries
1 apple
1 banana
1 cup pineapple
1 inch slice ginger root

BLEND with ice + cup of water

3.FLAWLESS SKIN

An anti-aging blend that nourishes the skin with antioxidants, vitamins,
trace minerals and essential fatty acids.

1 tablespoon flax seeds
1 tablespoon chia seeds
2 apples
2 cups sunflower sprouts
½ a small carrot
1 small beetroot
5 medium strawberries
½ cup blueberries

BLEND with ice + cup of water

 

Confessions Of My Imperfection

There is a You Tube video of a speech I made 2 years ago, emphatically proclaiming that I would never again consume animal products. In my impassioned speech, I share graphic imagery of the cruel treatment of animals by the fashion, food, entertainment and medical science industries.

I challenge the audience to watch the animal rights film ‘Earthlings’. I watched this film before I decided to become a Vegan. It took me five tries to watch it all the way through as I would break down sobbing each time, filled with such despair and powerlessness as I watched the suffering of helpless animals. So I thought that what I could do, and was within my power was not to eat or consume any animal products, including buying any more leather and obviously fur products. I had already been considering becoming Vegan or at least Vegetarian, after having been affected by films such as ‘The Cove’, ‘Food Inc’ and ‘Food Matters’ over a period of a six months. Watching ‘Earthlings’ was the final push that helped me make the commitment to becoming Vegan.

After my speech, I preached to my family and friends about eating a Vegan diet, disapproving of their choices to eat meat or go to a seafood restaurant. I forced my mother to sit down and watch Earthlings- all 2 hour 40 min of animals being slaughtered and killed in the cruelest ways. To her credit she didn’t put up much of a fight. I was on a one woman crusade to save every single animal and inspire everyone to become Vegan, stop wearing fur and boycott all organisations and corporations that tested on animals.

Most of my closest friends indulged me and let me choose the restaurants we ate at. Of course I chose Vegetarian restaurants whenever I could. Some of them would apologise if they were eating meat/seafood in front of me and asked if I minded. My cousin was thrilled that she was no longer going to be the only Vegan in the village. My family however had mixed reactions, having been witness to my various diets over the years. Some were supportive, others indifferent and invited me to a steak house for Christmas.

For the first year, I thrived. I lost weight, I became leaner. My skin became clearer, my digestion improved, I felt energized. I enjoyed learning about Vegan foods, trying new Vegan recipes, searching out restaurants serving Vegan fare – of which there are many in Singapore* – and learning about Vegan alternatives to leather belts, shoes and wallets. I was delighted to find the wonderful brand Harveys, which produces elegant bags and wallets made from upcycled seatbelts.

After a year though, some health issues started to creep in. On my return from a trip to Thailand, where I ate many raw fruits and drank fruit juices, I came back feeling very tired and after a consultation with a naturopath, found out that I had picked up parasites. It took me over a year to recover, with various herbs and holistic treatments, and I am still taking these anti-parasitic herbs, as I make sure my body is completely clear of them.

My teeth started to lose enamel and decay at an alarming rate, with much pain and I had to have 3 root canals and a dental implant before I did research on natural dental health and Veganism, which led me to a book on how dairy foods and meat high in iron like liver were the best dietary choices for repairing poor dental health.** This was the first sobering news I received. I did not want to immediately start eating dairy or meat, but I kept this at the back of my mind as a last resort and continued to do research and try to add in as much calcium, protein, Vitamin D and B12 into my diet through supplementation and Vegan foods. I went on to find even more articles and blogs by recovering Vegans who had suffered from vitamin and mineral deficiencies, exhaustion and dental problems.***

Anyone that knows me well will know that eating nutritious wholesome foods is a passion of mine. I eat well. I can’t remember the last time I was in McDonalds and I make sure to include a wide variety of organic fruit, vegetables and grains in my diet. For those who are Vegans or Vegetarians, you might be thinking that I just didn’t have the right information on what kinds of foods you need to eat, or that I just wasn’t committed or disciplined enough. Some of you Non Veggies may be thinking the same. I know, I thought that too of others in the past and judged myself as well. I now know from my personal experience and research, that not everybody can be a Vegan or even Vegetarian, and I am one of those people.

After a full year of trying to rid my body of parasites and regain my energy, vitality and stop the alarming decay of my teeth, I had to admit that I just couldn’t do it anymore. I just couldn’t continue being on a Vegan diet. I started to eat some dairy, then seafood and eventually small amounts of meat. As I introduced more varieties of food into my diet, I noticed that my digestion improved. My stomach wasn’t bloated all the time and I left a meal feeling full, instead of always thinking about the next meal. My mind was clearer and I didn’t have to drag myself out of bed each morning because I was so lacking in energy. I finally got rid of the parasites in my body and received a clean bill of health. My teeth started to feel strong and in a stable condition.

It is a work in progress and I don’t always feel on track, but now my commitment is to my sense of equilibrium and an intuitive sense of what I need to eat a balanced diet. I know the difference now between being disciplined and committed, to being extremist. I have been learning this lesson most of my life, especially in terms of my diet. My slavish devotion to calorie counting, restrictive dieting and extremist dietary tendencies only tapered off as I stopped focusing on losing weight but instead on self-acceptance, health and balance.

I now aim to sustainably consume animal products, while not sacrificing my health to do so. I still focus mostly on eating unprocessed, natural whole Vegetarian foods and continue to avoid additives, preservatives and fast foods. I still try to eat as many varieties of vegetables and fruits as possible. I also buy organic food as much as I can afford to. But now my focus is also on what my body needs at each moment to nourish and energise itself. Sometimes that’s an egg or fish, and other times it’s a simple green apple.

I confess that I am imperfect and I could not live up to the promise I made to never again consume any animal products 2 years ago. But it is my imperfection that makes me human. It reminds me that I’m always learning and that what is best for me evolves moment to moment as I seek to understand the individual choices I need to make to live in balance. It humbled me to have to come down from my ivory tower of Vegangelicalism and let go of the gazes of admiration I lapped up when I told others I was Vegan.

I write this article not as a warning against Veganism or Vegetarianism, but extremism. I believe that there are individuals who have the constitution, health and lifestyle that allows them to be healthy as Vegans or Vegetarians. I wish I was one of them. My love for animals and desire to contribute to reducing the cruelty inflicted on them has not gone away or lessened in any form. It broke my heart to have to eat dairy, seafood and meat again. However I found that to be healthy and compassionate toward myself, I had to do so. Maybe that’s more important than trying to be perfect, absolute or seeking admiration and acknowledgement from others for your lifestyle and resolve. My imperfections and contradictions keep me grounded and appreciative of the complexities of life and connected to more people. By being compassionate with myself, I can be compassionate and accepting of others and realise that our existence is often beyond labels, absolute values and personal struggles; that there is a boundless perspective that we cannot grasp from our level of consciousness. I find that very reassuring, that there is a boundless indefinable consciousness that is in charge and I can let go as I’m just a very small part of it. Paradoxically by being a part of it, I am also more, boundless and indefinable. And maybe what seems imperfect to me from my perspective, is perfect in the grand scheme of things, after all.

* Singapore was listed as one of the top 10 cities in the world for Vegetarian food by raw food advocate and author Frederic Patenaude http://www.fredericpatenaude.com/blog/?p=1914

** An instructional website on curing tooth decay with natural foods by dental health author, Ramiel Nagel http://www.curetoothdecay.com/

*** A raw vegan family share about their journey to health http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/healthy-living/how-our-vegan-diet-made-us-ill-848322.html

London Calling

I was recently in London. It was an unexpected trip, that came together in the space of a weekend. But once I decided to go, it felt like the trip took on a momentum of it’s own, and each moment flowed intentionally into the next, like there was a greater force driving this trip.

I was there for my Sociology degree study course, and having left University almost two decades ago in a chaotic and messy way, it felt very healing for me to be in a college, but in a manageable way. I enjoyed interacting with the students who had come from all over the world and learning their stories. I loved learning about the Age of the Enlightenment. It gave me newfound respect for rationality, logic and science. I learnt all about how at one time, logic and science were controversial topics because of the absolute authority of the church and aristocracy in Europe.

When not studying, I spent most of my time, with family and friends. This was unlike much of the previous times I had been in the UK, especially when I was much younger and only really interested in elaborate parties in exclusive locations. Now the simple heartfelt company of honest friends and loved ones held a much greater draw.

Research in the new discipline of neurocardiology shows that the human heart generates the strongest electrical and magnetic field of any organ in the body. Compared to the brain, the electrical component of the heart’s field is about 60 times greater in amplitude. The magnetic component of the heart’s field is about 5000 times stronger than the brain and can be detected several feet away.

This is especially found to be so, when the heart is expressing emotions of a coherent nature such as care, compassion and concern. This current consciousness research, seems to me to be heralding a new Age of Enlightenment where we are moving beyond logic and rationality to wider and subtler heartfelt ways of living.

For myself personally, where external achievements or riches used to impress me, now generosity of spirit does so more, or how openly someone shares about their lives and how they contribute to their community. There is a growing, subtler and deeper part of me that just wants to be in the authentic company of another human being.

In the British museum, when my friend shared about being abused when he was young, and I also shared with him the effects of my being molested as a child. I felt very grateful for how his honesty allowed us to truly connect. He had been through many brushes with death due to the effects of his self-destructive behaviour, that had arisen from the trauma of being abused. Now he feels that there is little point in standing on ceremony and chooses to live each moment of his life openly and to the fullest. I was glad to have been in his company and his openness set the precedent for the rest of my interactions with people on this trip.

At a friend’s parent’s home, I was moved by stories from her German mother, who had married her father and moved to the UK just after World War 2. She spoke of how she had struggled with being accepted by the English and understanding the different culture she found herself in, which felt both unwelcoming and superficial. Thereafter becoming a recluse and restricting her interactions to those of her immediate family and pet Dachshunds.

In a Vegan restaurant while eating carrot cake with soy cream, my handsome friend told me of his struggles with depression and finding direction and meaning in his life. Where previously I had been feeling frustrated that he didn’t seem to be very interested in any real conversation at all, i was now sitting up and finally understanding why it had been so difficult to connect with him- he had been struggling to connect with himself.

Coming home I was glad to be in the comforts of my warm island state, and back to my routines somewhat, but I was undeniably richer for the unique heartfelt experiences I had had on my trip. They added colour and depth to the tapestry of my life that is woven from the threads of meaningful encounters I have, when I share with others in an open and heart-centred, about the experiences of our lives.


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